You
don’t expect it. That’s the first thing people have to understand. It’s the
freak event that arrives without warning in the middle of a clear, blue sky
day.
We
expect certain behaviors from others. What we expect varies from situation to
situation, but at work and in our social worlds, our expectations are largely
determined by the recognized roles those others play in our lives and the
greater world. What do we expect of a friend? A teacher?A priest? A policeman
or a judge? A boss?
Whether
the other is someone we consider a friend or is our host in his own home,
whether he’s someone we look up to as a mentor, a teacher or a priest, or he’s
just “the boss,” we can’t predict every word of the other ahead of time,
naturally. But certain utterances, when we hear them, are so freakish, such outrageous
departures from any role-appropriate conversation we might have expected, that
we can hardly believe our ears.
Stunned. That’s what he said.
Former director James Comey says he was stunned, and that’s the word,
all right. Think, as we say here Up North, “a deer in the headlights.”
Momentarily paralyzed with disbelief. Your mind, supposed to interpret and tell
us what to do, can say little beyond “This can’t be happening. This can’t be
real. He couldn’t have just said [or done] that.”
You
get out of there as fast as you can, saying as little as possible. Your mind
whirls. Let’s say this is someone with whom you work—for whom you work.
Whether you’re well along in a professional career or just starting out in one
or you’re just in some low-level, minimum-wage job you can’t afford to lose,
what do you do now?
Some
people quit, but most continue to try to do their jobs.
“Why didn’t you tell him he was being
inappropriate?”
“Why
didn’t you tell this story sooner?”
Why
didn’t you do this or
say that?
In other words, what’s wrong with you that you did not give the appropriate
response
to the inappropriate observation or request or touch?
Because
you couldn’t believe what was happening.
Because
you couldn’t believe what he just said.
Because
he made sure there were no witnesses.
Because
you just wanted to get out of there.
Because
you still had a job to do.
So
you put it aside and go on, protecting yourself as best you can from any future
repetition of the situation.
“Why
did you continue to take his calls?” Comey was asked.
He
was doing his job.
Abuses
of power are not always about sex, and abusers do not target only women, but
the basic scenario has the same familiar ring. There are no witnesses. And you
just can’t believe it’s happening.
